How have things changed?

I haven't written in or even looked at this blog in 3 to 4 years. So how have things changed?  When I recently decided to come back to this blog, I expected that i would read over posts that i wrote in the past and find that a lot had changed. I feel like I've changed and grown so much that i expected this to be reflected in some substantial way to how I felt in the past versus how I feel about things now. I was surprised to realize that my core values are unchanged, and exactly the same as they were in the past. I read over every post and I can say that i still agree with everything I said then. So how have things changed? The major change has been in my experience level. I was relatively inexperienced back then and though I'm no expert now, i can say i know a lot more, have a lot more experience with everything, and have gained great confidence in my abilities, as both a dominatrix and as a woman in general.  So, how did my relationships go over the last few years. Well, I played with 2 main subs for a few years. Then my work schedule changed and i had less time for me, so I let one go and just played occasionally with the other. During this time, I focused on my kids, took some college classes, and attempted a long term relationship which unfortunately failed. Now I have been able to make time for myself again, hopefully for good, and i am focusing on things that i need to do for me. Things like physical fitness, martial arts, some college classes I've been meaning to finish, etc. Oh, and most importantly, I'm ready to establish that long term, female led relationship with 2 wonderful submissive males, whoever they may be.